Masochist

I just keep letting you break my heart

Unable to control the memories it holds

The desires it longs for

I just wish it would warn me

Before it does something stupid like hope

Tell me, why can't I let you go?

I left you in another place

Or maybe really you left me

But if we're being honest

There wasn't "anything"

Or any "us" to leave

Tell me, why can't I let you go?

I have nothing

Except for this stupid hope I created

And locked myself in 

Without prior consent

Tell me, why can't I let you go?

I just want to be free

But freedom alludes

Teases just out of reach

While I am shackled to this false hope

Tell me, why can't I let you go?

If the annoying voice would stop shouting

MAYBE DON'T GIVE UP!!

Then maybe, I could give up

I just don't understand the hold

It makes no sense

Tell me, why can't I let you go?