Monday, February 23, 2009

it's hard to look at the pictures of people who don't want to be a part of your life. and never tried. and still don't try. it shouldn't matter anymore. it's always been this way. but it does. i shouldn't have to fight back tears in the coffee shop right now. i have good defense mechanisms. but i am still very fragile. i probably should get this fragility looked at. i've been hurting long enough. i don't have to hurt.

5 comments:

Ellen said...

I'm always here...and I'm praying for Grandpa, you and your family. I love you.

samantha lee said...

thanks friend. yesterday just sucked between almost crying in albina and then having my dad call about my grandpa being taken to the hospital things just aren't too fantastic. love you too.

Caitlin said...

iloveyou.

samantha lee said...

love you too.

Trish said...

i, too, love you!!!!!
A LOT!