less periphery.

i feel distant from things i want to feel close to. i feel distant from people i have always wanted to love but have never figured out how more than an email here or there or an occasional care package. i try to like the telephone but i just don't. i like the people in my life i just wish there were some people who were in it more often and less periphery. what happens when i leave the country?

it's hard to see us sinking when we are light enough to float...

currently.

reading

dancing.

writing.

concert going.

embroidering.

laughing.

playing.

searching for God.

searching for a european country to call home.

wordlessly expressing.

longing

more laughing.

traveling.

thinking about traveling.

singing.

drinking tea.

fall sunshine.

our fall is cloudy in portland and this is a little bit of sunshine.

Suzie Johannes

last night i went to a show a local coffee house. there was an eating contest that consisted of one man eating a jelly roll and another one eating a lightbulb (i'm not kidding he at a lightbulb, he's a circus performer so that makes it normal, right? right.). there was also some awesome hip hop artists free styling and they wore cardigans and they talked a lot about Jesus and it was good. there was also some amazing poetry that brought tears to my eyes. there was also this wonderful musician kelli schaefer her music was phenomenal, you should listen to her song "carry us over".