Perfect Plastic Casing

trying to live in a moving box

contents wrapped in plastic bags

seemingly safe from harm

but cause for a noisy existence

everything untouchable in its

perfect

plastic

casing

visible in its loneliness

not sure how to reach out

without pushing away

plastic casing is safer

but who wants to hug a bag?

with its cold staticy edges

when flesh and blood live next door

a warm body will always win

cuz it's about nearness not perfection

and being close is a luxury

a luxury that a plastic bag will never know

Portland Playlist

Missy Higgins

Norah Jones

The Decemberists 

Iron&Wine

I'm going to go to the Tao of Tea today. My first adventure alone into downtown!

This song has been one I can't get enough of lately. 

It's "Forgive Me" by Missy Higgins:

Oh my son look at what I've done

But I am learning still

Learning still

Know that I am learning still

And oh my wife you are my life

And I am burning still

Burning still

Know that I am burning for you still

And all, all of my light is for you

And home, home's anywhere you are too

So take this one fallen man on his knees

Saying please forgive me

Oh my God how you make it hard

Not to pick the apple

Pick the apple

And Lord I long to give it back

And I was on shaky land

Lost and unsure I opened my hand

And she held it like sinking sand

And all, all, all of my light is for you

And home, home's anywhere you are too

So take this one fallen man on his knees

Saying please

All, all, all of my light is for you

And home, home's anywhere you are too

So take this one fallen man on his knees 

Saying please forgive me

Forgive me

Forgive me

So I am just feeling sorry for myself lately. I'm going to get over it!! All the school stuff starts on thursday with orientation and I think after that I'll feel better. Right now I just want to pack up and go home but I've gotta give it time and try and so I will! Massive amounts of tea will get me through!!

In my New Living Room

I need a friend. I'm really trying not to be lonely but my dad left today and it's all kinda starting to hit me. The girl I'm living with is nice but we are very different to say the least. I'm afraid I might scare her a little bit. Oh goodness gracious...I think unpacking my room and going for a walk will make me feel better. I hope so.

Last Day in California

So, I'm moving to Oregon tomorrow. I feel like I have so much to say but neither the energy or desire to do so. So much has changed in me this summer. Maybe some other time. Talk to you from Oregon.

JJ Heller's New Album

If you have ever heard of JJ Heller then you know she is amazing. If you haven't heard of her music then you need too!! Here's your chance!! She is giving away her new album for free to download through November. Take this opportunity to become acquainted with her music. Her music has changed my life maybe it'll do the same for you.

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I'm Feeling Better

I took some deep breathes.
Talked to Eric Weitzel.
Got more information about Portland.
What could be better? (nutella with feta on toast)

I am terribly afriad that I am making the wrong decision. Things aren't fitting together as perfectly as I hoped. I don't know what to do I am so confused.