This Side of Today

I held on to you far longer than was healthy
You lived nicely packaged under my bed

Contained in the box I made, 

The picture from your calendar decorating it.

It was amazing how 3 1/2 years 

Could fist so easily in a shoebox

Ten silver dollars, pictures and ticket stubs

All just empty reminders of the pain I carried.

Then one day, packing up life for the first time

I threw it away--and you with it

I was starting new without you

You would be a lesson I learned

A time of life I would remember

But not long for anymore.

So I ran,

I ran to find the person I had never known--

I found her in foreign countries

In the eyes of the people who loved her,

I found her in darkness

And in the light that pervaded the dark she lied in,

In the end when I had the courage 

I looked in the mirror and found her in my eyes.

I had only been lost

Because I did not know how to be found,

So now I walk

Not needing to watch my feet

The ground is not going anywhere anymore,

Eye raised watching everything

Introducing all to who I am being and becoming.