The Truth That Hurts

This is one of those songs that says goodbye

That is thrown away because of pain

Not even given a second glance

Because goodbye is too permanent,

And I don't do permanent,

I keep things surface level

Because I'm not gonna hurt

I'm not gonna care

That way when you say goodbye 

I don't even have to give a sad contemplative sigh

Because I won't mind,

Or at least that's what I'll tell you,

I'll tell you I don't care 

And that I will shed no tears over your memory,

If I even decide to keep memories of you,

And you might even believe my hard exterior

And my nonchalant ways

But the truth--

The truth is I feel too much

And my heart will ache with your goodbye

And I will cry,

But I will wait until you leave

Because I try to be tough

And I try to build wall that you can't climb

When really I've made it so I can't climb out,

And so is this my future behind a wall?

Never having to say goodbye,

But never given the opportunity to say hello...